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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

It's snowing

I hate the snow now.

It snowed the last morning Cliff was alive, and now ... every time it snows, those flakes just fill me with so much loss and pain.

I miss him beyond words. It is unspeakable.

Not to mention how vulnerable it makes me feel. I can't drive in it. I worry that if I walk in it I will fall and break an arm or a leg. Then what? How would I cope?

Life is so frightening now.

6 comments:

  1. i completely understand and i am so sorry. i say i am homesick for New England and the ocean but i do not know how i will feel about it should i ever get the chance to see either again. and i agree wholeheartedly. life is so frightening now. i wish you so much peace and light.

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  2. thanks S, life is so different now isn't it? *sigh* love and light to you too xx

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  3. so overwhelming, to boot. How heavy even the smallest things are to carry by oneself in this new deal.

    xo

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  4. Thinking of you, Boo.
    And wishing that I had the magic words to make you feel better.
    But there are none.
    As you know.
    Love from Texas ....

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  5. Life is different now.
    But look at the snow - it is beautiful. But it isn't your enemy. Just needs treating with respect.
    It scares the heck out of me, so I simply shut down when it snows. If it is bad tomorrow, then don't go anywhere. No one will blame you if it isn't a life or death thing. I was just talking to a friend who took 6 hours to get home. That is just crap. Don't do it. Take a day's holiday if you need to, but don't go in if you are scared.
    It isn't worth it.
    Jxx (in full clucky mode)

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  6. Megan, yes everything is hard now!

    Janine - thanks, you are right there are no magic words, but it is magical that you send me love from Texas :-)

    J - you're right it is beautiful, it really is. I am working from home again today ... in fact work has shut the office for 24 hours ... thanks for clucking xx

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