A wave similar to this one hit me last night, leaving me exhausted today. I think that the firework's effect finally hit me.
I don't know how my body can produce so many tears. I feel as though I have cried an ocean of them.
And I know that I still have an ocean of tears left inside of me.
J in Wales wrote a post today that I really think hits the nail on the head.
It feels as though I am a little ship, navigating its way through waters. Sometimes I drop my anchor and hop onto other boats for company. Sometimes I navigate through calm waters. Sometimes I get engulfed by a big mo-fo tsunami. But I never get to harbour anymore (well I did get to harbour with his friends on Friday evening and that was so healing, but that was a one-off). I never dry-dock.
It's not tenable forever.
Forever is such a big word.