I am beginning to think that I got the raw end of the deal. I never thought I'd say this at the beginning, but it is actually worse for me. He's free. I'm left with all the pain and alone.
But then, I wonder ... is he in pain because I am, does he worry about me? Does he sit alone on the sidelines cheering me on?
Am I endangering him in some way because I'm not moving on?
My friend and I have both had very vivid dreams about Cliff being trapped in some kind of prison. Is there some significance there?
I've got to pull myself out of this hole, just in case I'm hurting him.
The thought of hurting him kills me.
C'mon Boo, you can do this.