Why can't I cry?
I can feel the pressure building within me, trying to find its own release ... and yet, I just can't cry.
Am I numb again? I really don't know.
The car issue is temporarily resolved and Brian just texted me to check that I'm alright (he was a close friend of Cliff's for over 30 years), but I'm feeling a bit wobbly because he's moving to Spain in a couple of weeks. Another security blanket going away. WTF are almost all of his friends leaving the country? It's making me feel as though I'm at high altitude and the air is too thin to breathe.
I've really got to get my shit together.