Well, half an hour after my last post, Shaun and Gary appeared even though they knew working on the roof was out of the question. I was so happy to see them. Gary had an abscess on his tooth and a fat face ... he was clearly in pain - yet they still came.
We chatted, talked seriously, laughed and gossiped for a couple of hours ... and then they suggested I follow them back down to the coast ... which I did, and I overcame another major hurdle with them ... because of them.
I WENT FOR A DRINK IN OUR OLD HOMETOWN and I kept my shit together! Yes really, no tears ... although those came this evening - but they would have done anyhow.
Afterwards, I saw Gaynor and that's always good. She is such a beautiful person. An earth mother. I feel calm and completely relaxed with her ... I can say what I want and she understands, not only that, she gives me a balanced perspective and solid advice, interjected with her own inimitable sense of humour.
And the bonus - their son Carl, who is also my friend ... and who Cliff was very fond of and had respect for even ... popped round with his two sons - and they are a delight. Good for the soul :-)
I love our friends.