It's become very apparent that for the last year of Cliff's life, he knew that time was running out. He was so in touch with his body and very fey.
I'm so sorry baba, I didn't understand.
He knew I wasn't strong enough. Even as his strength was being depleted, he tried to leave me in my little world where I was happy and safe.
I didn't know. I didn't understand why he was trying so hard to finish the house. Why it seemed less important to him to earn money instead of finishing our home.
It's all become crystal clear.
That's how much he loved me.
And I couldn't even grasp it.
I'm sorry baba.