Friday, August 7, 2009

The real answer to "How are you?"

I feel like I'm waiting to die ...

or perhaps I'm learning to live ...

or ... I'm on the cusp of the two ...

I'm not sure anymore.


  1. Learning to live. Please believe me that this is true.
    I have survived the last couple of days and feel stronger for it. There have been so many tears, but they felt like healing tears. The pain is still there and I know it won't ever go away, but the love we shared is starting to be a healing thing and not just an empty feeling of loss all the time.
    J xxx
    PS Thanks for your good wishes to me. R's sister is here until tomorrow, so no time for blogging, but I just wanted to say hello.

  2. J - thanks so much for your message. You have been on my mind such a lot. It's good to hear that the tears were healing ones. You know, one of my oldest friends lost her little boy and she tells me that the big hole that is left in your heart, eventually fills with love instead of sadness. I like this. Because just like your words, it gives me hope. Sending you hugs and love, Boo x

  3. I'm right there with you! There are days that it just doesn't seem like it is worth going on anymore and then I have great days where my outlook is much improved.

    Whoever said that this journey is a roller-coaster is spot-on! I feel like I'm heading down in to a valley right now.

    Hope you are doing okay and that you have a good weekend!

    Lynette xoxo

  4. L - I know. It's so hard. It's more than sad. It's shit. Hope Cody is OK, bet you are happy to have him (her?) back xx