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Thursday, August 6, 2009

7 months today

7 months ago today, my world ended.

It feels like yesterday.

It feels like a millenia ago.

I still feel raw, as though someone has peeled the skin off my feelings and left the nerves exposed.

I still do NOT want to be here.

But I am learning to fight.

Even if this totally sucks.

7 comments:

  1. Some of these feelings never disappear, and I wish I had a secret for you on how to deal with them, but I don't. Hang in there, you sound like you are doing better each day!
    Thinking of you
    xo

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  2. thanks CarrieBoo for managing to motivate me, especially as I know how tough you have had it recently. Hope you are hanging in there too xx

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  3. The anniversaries suck and I'd love to tell you they get better but we know they won't.

    Today is the 16 month mark for me and since I am still puppy-less, I'm treating myself to a nice dinner at one of our favorite places.

    Sending ((hugs)) your way for a peaceful day!

    Lynette

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  4. L - enjoy your dinner. Can I assume that you are going to eat pasta in honour of your favourite pasta-head? Hugs

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  5. Hugs from Canada. I'm almost at 5 months and can relate to the feeling that it feels like it was yesterday and a millenia. You do inspire me through this shitty journey. Take care of yourself today.

    Debbie

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  6. ha - shitty journey, I love people who say it as it is :-) THAT made me smile.

    Hugs
    x

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  7. No good pasta places in town (I'm too picky I guess). I will go to one of our favorites in Des Moines in a couple of weeks--or maybe on the 18 month anniversary.. :)

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