I'm working from home AGAIN and beginning to worry that work is going to run out of patience with me. Worrying on top of everything else seems to go with this territory. But it makes it so much harder. I never had to worry about anything when Cliff was here. Then again, I now feel guilty about that ... but that's another subject.
The reason I'm working from home today is bizarre. I am NOT crying yet for the past 6 hours, my eyes have been producing big fat tears that have been relentless ... it's almost as though I have two waterfalls on my face. Even though the tears are coming, I feel alright, fairly strong today in fact ... but it's as though my body has other ideas and has decided that it needs to release them.
One of my team rang me earlier and I know that he was oblivious to the fact that I wasn't physically in the office, nor that I had an extremely wet face. It's hard to look professional and as though you've got your shit together in person though when this is happening. Yet I managed to navigate him through a complicated process on our internal intranet. On the plus side, at least I'm capable of sounding professional.
I'm having to sit back whilst typing otherwise the tears form a puddle on my laptop causing me to panic, in case I literally blow a fuse (and my laptop up) in the process.
I've never known anything like this before. It's strange to feel like you have no control over your body. Think I'll have a shower in a while to see if that helps, because my eyes, and the skin around my eyes, are sore.